Tuesday, June 15, 2004
Reflections and Big Leaps!
I ran away, I escaped deep within me, somewhere where I felt save, somewhere I could be myself, where I would be comfortable to accept the change.
I quit smoking over three weeks ago, I have cheated, but I haven’t because the way I look at it now, is every time I am drinking and have a puff, it’s just that, no more no less. I don’t want to get worked up over it, I do not have any intentions of returning to being a smoker. I no longer perceive myself as one who smokes.
I went on the Atkins diet, I researched it, my Mom was on it for 2 months, she has already lost 32 pounds, and looks great (though she did before too). I have lost ten pounds, since last Monday. I was doing quite well until my brother came to visit, he is eating all these delightful foods, like nachos and cheese, makes my mouth water a bit, and pizza and garlic fingers I miss that too.
I am having a dilemma, a major dilemma, an internal conflict. I will resolve it tomorrow, I need to think about it tonight.
I quit smoking over three weeks ago, I have cheated, but I haven’t because the way I look at it now, is every time I am drinking and have a puff, it’s just that, no more no less. I don’t want to get worked up over it, I do not have any intentions of returning to being a smoker. I no longer perceive myself as one who smokes.
I went on the Atkins diet, I researched it, my Mom was on it for 2 months, she has already lost 32 pounds, and looks great (though she did before too). I have lost ten pounds, since last Monday. I was doing quite well until my brother came to visit, he is eating all these delightful foods, like nachos and cheese, makes my mouth water a bit, and pizza and garlic fingers I miss that too.
I am having a dilemma, a major dilemma, an internal conflict. I will resolve it tomorrow, I need to think about it tonight.
