Wednesday, June 02, 2004
Exhausted
"They put it in your head
Then put you in your bed
He's watching say your prayers
Cause God is everywhere"
- Pantera
Self revelation is a hard thing to deal with, sometimes I look at my friends and I see a piece of myself within them. Normally it isn't the good portion either, and I want to cower away from it.
I feel empty, alone and destructive. I have an intense want to inflict pain and self doubt among those who are wandering in circles around me. The bleeding heart within me conflicts with the cruelest, coldest parts of the bitch.
My friends, family and strangers normally approach me when they are in mental disarray. This perplexes me.
It also amuses me that everything I fight so hard not to be, overwhelms me when I least expect it.
Crank the volume, and let the angry words and violent guitar drown out the whiny bitch.
Then put you in your bed
He's watching say your prayers
Cause God is everywhere"
- Pantera
Self revelation is a hard thing to deal with, sometimes I look at my friends and I see a piece of myself within them. Normally it isn't the good portion either, and I want to cower away from it.
I feel empty, alone and destructive. I have an intense want to inflict pain and self doubt among those who are wandering in circles around me. The bleeding heart within me conflicts with the cruelest, coldest parts of the bitch.
My friends, family and strangers normally approach me when they are in mental disarray. This perplexes me.
It also amuses me that everything I fight so hard not to be, overwhelms me when I least expect it.
Crank the volume, and let the angry words and violent guitar drown out the whiny bitch.
