Sunday, May 09, 2004
Terrified to Terrific
Have you ever noticed someone somewhere and thought that person looks like a really interesting person.... plus they are really attractive... though you notice the other people around them seem like a pretty tight knit group and you have no real logical reason to approach them..... though you always wanted to.....
Last night a group of my friends and I all met up at Herman's during the course of the evening I ran into one of my more interesting and controversial friends from work. He is usually in Hermans on a Saturday night, and one of the guys I normally see him with is H-O-T, with smoking eyes, nice long dark hair, and he seems to have all his teeth...
So I stopped the friend from work and the conversation went something like this...
Me: Hey is your hot friend single?
Him: What hot friend?
Me: The one with the long dark hair and beautiful eyes.
Him: Yea
Me: He's Hot
Him: Yea he is.
Me: Is he shallow like you?
Him: No, he hates all women equally
Me: He's gay?
Him: No, just he has been rejected by a lot of women or his exes treated him poorly.
Me: Well that's shitty.
Him: Want to meet him?
Me: He hates women?
Him: Yea, but want me to introduce you?
Me: NO!
Him: Why not?
At this point another friend I came with, who is the size of my pinkie finger, dressed in a cute little strapless dress, comes over, and says hey, I tell her the story and she says, let's go meet him, I am terrified.... like super terrified. I have an IMMENSE fear of rejection, and I am filled with anticipation and dread as we walk across the bar, me gulping my beer back, my stomach in knots... every little self-esteem issue was intensified in that moment.
We walk up to the table, my co-worker calls him over and introduces us, and I say hello and then look at the floor, and he goes back sits down and continues his conversation with the other guy at the table... I proceeded to babble like a mad fool to my friends, trying not to be a complete and utter idiot. My friend from work kept telling me I could be Paris Hilton or the Olsen twins and it wouldn't matter cause this guy hates women, Period!
I see my friend Georgina coming, and I knew if she herd the conversation she would say something, and it wouldn't be pretty.... so I mustered up every little bit of balls I could ever posses, because really when would an opportunity like this ever arise again.... I live my life "SANS Regret"!
I figured if this guy has such a terrible past with women, and has been rejected so many times, maybe he needs to know that he really is a very good looking guy. So I went for it....
I sat down next to him and I said (mind you I was loaded, and don't remember exactly what I said but it was something along these lines:
" I live my life Sans regret, without regrets, and I would really regret not talking to you, even for a moment, to just let you know that I find you very attractive, you have amazing eyes, and if you have anywhere near as much personality as your friend that I know..... I would believe you to be a very interesting person."
The I practically leaped out of the chair before he had a chance to laugh in my face, though I think he may have said thank you.
Then Georgina heard the story while I had been talking and she proceeded to sit down next to him, come back with her famous "he's not interested, but he doesn’t want to date anyone right now look".... which I despise, but I love how she tells me these things in such a great way, and se usually adds your too good for that guy anyway....lol
The polite let-down, always better than a "Get the fuck out of my face".
Then today I was chatting with my co-worker on messenger, and he told me that the hot guy asked him to give me his email address so we could chat on messenger, because he is shy.... That's fantastic cause I am an idiot..
He just came online again... I am flustered....
Last night a group of my friends and I all met up at Herman's during the course of the evening I ran into one of my more interesting and controversial friends from work. He is usually in Hermans on a Saturday night, and one of the guys I normally see him with is H-O-T, with smoking eyes, nice long dark hair, and he seems to have all his teeth...
So I stopped the friend from work and the conversation went something like this...
Me: Hey is your hot friend single?
Him: What hot friend?
Me: The one with the long dark hair and beautiful eyes.
Him: Yea
Me: He's Hot
Him: Yea he is.
Me: Is he shallow like you?
Him: No, he hates all women equally
Me: He's gay?
Him: No, just he has been rejected by a lot of women or his exes treated him poorly.
Me: Well that's shitty.
Him: Want to meet him?
Me: He hates women?
Him: Yea, but want me to introduce you?
Me: NO!
Him: Why not?
At this point another friend I came with, who is the size of my pinkie finger, dressed in a cute little strapless dress, comes over, and says hey, I tell her the story and she says, let's go meet him, I am terrified.... like super terrified. I have an IMMENSE fear of rejection, and I am filled with anticipation and dread as we walk across the bar, me gulping my beer back, my stomach in knots... every little self-esteem issue was intensified in that moment.
We walk up to the table, my co-worker calls him over and introduces us, and I say hello and then look at the floor, and he goes back sits down and continues his conversation with the other guy at the table... I proceeded to babble like a mad fool to my friends, trying not to be a complete and utter idiot. My friend from work kept telling me I could be Paris Hilton or the Olsen twins and it wouldn't matter cause this guy hates women, Period!
I see my friend Georgina coming, and I knew if she herd the conversation she would say something, and it wouldn't be pretty.... so I mustered up every little bit of balls I could ever posses, because really when would an opportunity like this ever arise again.... I live my life "SANS Regret"!
I figured if this guy has such a terrible past with women, and has been rejected so many times, maybe he needs to know that he really is a very good looking guy. So I went for it....
I sat down next to him and I said (mind you I was loaded, and don't remember exactly what I said but it was something along these lines:
" I live my life Sans regret, without regrets, and I would really regret not talking to you, even for a moment, to just let you know that I find you very attractive, you have amazing eyes, and if you have anywhere near as much personality as your friend that I know..... I would believe you to be a very interesting person."
The I practically leaped out of the chair before he had a chance to laugh in my face, though I think he may have said thank you.
Then Georgina heard the story while I had been talking and she proceeded to sit down next to him, come back with her famous "he's not interested, but he doesn’t want to date anyone right now look".... which I despise, but I love how she tells me these things in such a great way, and se usually adds your too good for that guy anyway....lol
The polite let-down, always better than a "Get the fuck out of my face".
Then today I was chatting with my co-worker on messenger, and he told me that the hot guy asked him to give me his email address so we could chat on messenger, because he is shy.... That's fantastic cause I am an idiot..
He just came online again... I am flustered....
