Monday, May 03, 2004
"I'm pretty right?"
So the cute guy from work.... Yea over that like yesterdays news. We were talking and his criteria for dating woman was :
1. Non-smoker (I still smoke)
2. Non-drinker (not today... but tomorrow is Friday)
3. No drugs (no comment)
4. Catholic ( I disagree with catholism)
5. No Kids (Check)
6. Long Dark hair (Check)
7. Have a university degree. (Not yet)
8. At Least 5 foot 6 (Check)
9. No more than 120 lbs (*cough COUGH* choke gag choke)
Now somehow that list is understandable, predictable and reasonable.... He doesn't smoke, so no smoking, he doesn't drink or do drugs, makes sense..... No kids... well..... Ok I can accept that... Dark hair... hrmm now that's different... University... wants educated woman, that's cool,catholic thing kind of surprised me, because he isn't very religious, but ok then.... and tall woman, another odd thing...
no more than 120 pounds.............. Like a cold, hard, slap across the face, as I read those words...... Written to me, him knowing that I am sure as hell not that small!
The honest truth, he confirmed every fear I had about guys and what they really think about women. The guys who tell me they want an intelligent women, and then turn around and date the ditziest girls. The guys who tell me, Jamie you are so pretty or the famous "you aren't fat" line.....
Well I weigh more than 120 pounds......
It was a major blow to my self-esteem, I ended up, quite later on in the evening, (well morning) crying in the bathroom to my friend Erica, "I'm pretty right?" A very low moment for this girl, one that I didn't really want to put here, cause it shows how sometimes I ham not the tough cold-hearted bitch that I like to think people think I am.
I then went out and told another good friend the story, but in a different way, I explained it to him like "you are a pretty boy and I expect you to be shallow and only date pretty little bimbos" (no offence to any of his past "girls"). He then turns to me tells me I am pretty and kissed me softly on the cheek... I know it's retarded but I felt much better between that, and Erica saying that I was way better than this guy ( typical "girl" reaction).
I did end up telling the guy I had a crush on him until he went and said such a stupid thing..... He really is a pretty cool guy, just rather close minded and shallow.
I have changed my mind again about the Atkins thing, I think I will stay fat a little longer, cause it teaches me valuable lessons, so when I do get my kick ass body back I really will appreciate it, with every scar and freckle.
1. Non-smoker (I still smoke)
2. Non-drinker (not today... but tomorrow is Friday)
3. No drugs (no comment)
4. Catholic ( I disagree with catholism)
5. No Kids (Check)
6. Long Dark hair (Check)
7. Have a university degree. (Not yet)
8. At Least 5 foot 6 (Check)
9. No more than 120 lbs (*cough COUGH* choke gag choke)
Now somehow that list is understandable, predictable and reasonable.... He doesn't smoke, so no smoking, he doesn't drink or do drugs, makes sense..... No kids... well..... Ok I can accept that... Dark hair... hrmm now that's different... University... wants educated woman, that's cool,catholic thing kind of surprised me, because he isn't very religious, but ok then.... and tall woman, another odd thing...
no more than 120 pounds.............. Like a cold, hard, slap across the face, as I read those words...... Written to me, him knowing that I am sure as hell not that small!
The honest truth, he confirmed every fear I had about guys and what they really think about women. The guys who tell me they want an intelligent women, and then turn around and date the ditziest girls. The guys who tell me, Jamie you are so pretty or the famous "you aren't fat" line.....
Well I weigh more than 120 pounds......
It was a major blow to my self-esteem, I ended up, quite later on in the evening, (well morning) crying in the bathroom to my friend Erica, "I'm pretty right?" A very low moment for this girl, one that I didn't really want to put here, cause it shows how sometimes I ham not the tough cold-hearted bitch that I like to think people think I am.
I then went out and told another good friend the story, but in a different way, I explained it to him like "you are a pretty boy and I expect you to be shallow and only date pretty little bimbos" (no offence to any of his past "girls"). He then turns to me tells me I am pretty and kissed me softly on the cheek... I know it's retarded but I felt much better between that, and Erica saying that I was way better than this guy ( typical "girl" reaction).
I did end up telling the guy I had a crush on him until he went and said such a stupid thing..... He really is a pretty cool guy, just rather close minded and shallow.
I have changed my mind again about the Atkins thing, I think I will stay fat a little longer, cause it teaches me valuable lessons, so when I do get my kick ass body back I really will appreciate it, with every scar and freckle.
