Friday, November 28, 2003
If I were to die tomorrow.............
I would be PISSED because I:
- never get to see the third and final ~Lord of the Rings~ movie (Return of the King Dec 17th)
- never got to attend Jordan and Meg's wedding (in some exotic local)
- never will be able to drive my brother's ~VIPER~ (he plans on buying one in the future and the kid is stingy so I can see him saving up the money to do it)
- never will meet my future husband (cause I am not going to Scotland till April and have no idea what he even looks like)
- won't get to go on my adventure up north for a year.
- did not get to write my novel (which is something I hope to accomplish up north)
- wouldn't be going to England with my cousin in April
- or New Zealand before I am 25
- never get to show my Grammy my new car ( it is like a child to me I will carry a picture of it in my wallet and am going to send all my friends from away a picture in their Christmas cards LOL)
- would NEVER know what falling in love is really like
- or how they will end my other favorite show (Angel) cause I hated how they ended the other one (Buffy)
- not getting to attend the good old SRHS 10 year reunion ( cause it will be a riot)
- never being able to loose that weight I have been trying to get rid off ( though I hope they could dispose of it at the mortician.. On a side note I wonder if they would do that if I left directions in my will......... and give me fake nails cause I am a chronic nail biter..... Oh and sand off a few of my freckles and all my pimples..... wouldn't that suck if I died on my period cause you know then it would be worse.......... wow that continued longer than I thought it would)
On the plus side
- I could stop trying to quit smoking
- I wouldn't have to watch my family die, and deal with their funerals and life without them
- I wouldn't have to take another call from a dumb ass from Alabama
- I would never have to wonder if God exists anymore
- or if Elvis is really dead
- and where Jimmy Hoffa ended up
- I would know if Aliens exist
- I could party with Janis, Jimmi, Johnny, Jim, Elvis (?).......
- I could stop worrying about my future
- and catch up with other relatives and friends who have already passed on
- I wouldn't have to worry about "being female"
- or getting a sunburn
- or how I smelled
- or pimples
- or how fat I am
- or dating
- or being burned alive ( I am convinced my apartment will catch fire and I will be tramped inside)
- or drowning (cause I'd already be dead DUH!)
- I wouldn't have to worry about seeing creepy things when i least expect them (I would be a creepy thing.......Cool)
- I could stop worrying about disappointing my family ( the extended family like cousins & aunts) when they all discover that I have smoked weed and had sex (more than once), and do drink a little too much sometimes, and do NOT plan on actually having any children biologically, (maybe adopt someday when i can handle the responsibiltity and control my temper).
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Okay got a little too personal there maybe.......... but things I was contemplating on this chilly evening in November, one of the last of the year 2003, needed to be expelled form my system. It's good to reflect!
I went to see Gothika tonight but it was sold out and ended up renting the extended versions of both Lord of the Rings........... and I thought "Man I would be pissed if I didn't get to see the last of the trilogy" hence the list, in case you thought I was being overly morbid, and dabbling in the idea of suicide...............
- never get to see the third and final ~Lord of the Rings~ movie (Return of the King Dec 17th)
- never got to attend Jordan and Meg's wedding (in some exotic local)
- never will be able to drive my brother's ~VIPER~ (he plans on buying one in the future and the kid is stingy so I can see him saving up the money to do it)
- never will meet my future husband (cause I am not going to Scotland till April and have no idea what he even looks like)
- won't get to go on my adventure up north for a year.
- did not get to write my novel (which is something I hope to accomplish up north)
- wouldn't be going to England with my cousin in April
- or New Zealand before I am 25
- never get to show my Grammy my new car ( it is like a child to me I will carry a picture of it in my wallet and am going to send all my friends from away a picture in their Christmas cards LOL)
- would NEVER know what falling in love is really like
- or how they will end my other favorite show (Angel) cause I hated how they ended the other one (Buffy)
- not getting to attend the good old SRHS 10 year reunion ( cause it will be a riot)
- never being able to loose that weight I have been trying to get rid off ( though I hope they could dispose of it at the mortician.. On a side note I wonder if they would do that if I left directions in my will......... and give me fake nails cause I am a chronic nail biter..... Oh and sand off a few of my freckles and all my pimples..... wouldn't that suck if I died on my period cause you know then it would be worse.......... wow that continued longer than I thought it would)
On the plus side
- I could stop trying to quit smoking
- I wouldn't have to watch my family die, and deal with their funerals and life without them
- I wouldn't have to take another call from a dumb ass from Alabama
- I would never have to wonder if God exists anymore
- or if Elvis is really dead
- and where Jimmy Hoffa ended up
- I would know if Aliens exist
- I could party with Janis, Jimmi, Johnny, Jim, Elvis (?).......
- I could stop worrying about my future
- and catch up with other relatives and friends who have already passed on
- I wouldn't have to worry about "being female"
- or getting a sunburn
- or how I smelled
- or pimples
- or how fat I am
- or dating
- or being burned alive ( I am convinced my apartment will catch fire and I will be tramped inside)
- or drowning (cause I'd already be dead DUH!)
- I wouldn't have to worry about seeing creepy things when i least expect them (I would be a creepy thing.......Cool)
- I could stop worrying about disappointing my family ( the extended family like cousins & aunts) when they all discover that I have smoked weed and had sex (more than once), and do drink a little too much sometimes, and do NOT plan on actually having any children biologically, (maybe adopt someday when i can handle the responsibiltity and control my temper).
***********************************************************************************************
Okay got a little too personal there maybe.......... but things I was contemplating on this chilly evening in November, one of the last of the year 2003, needed to be expelled form my system. It's good to reflect!
I went to see Gothika tonight but it was sold out and ended up renting the extended versions of both Lord of the Rings........... and I thought "Man I would be pissed if I didn't get to see the last of the trilogy" hence the list, in case you thought I was being overly morbid, and dabbling in the idea of suicide...............
