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I would be PISSED because I:

- never get to see the third and final ~Lord of the Rings~ movie (Return of the King Dec 17th)
- never got to attend Jordan and Meg's wedding (in some exotic local)
- never will be able to drive my brother's ~VIPER~ (he plans on buying one in the future and the kid is stingy so I can see him saving up the money to do it)
- never will meet my future husband (cause I am not going to Scotland till April and have no idea what he even looks like)
- won't get to go on my adventure up north for a year.
- did not get to write my novel (which is something I hope to accomplish up north)
- wouldn't be going to England with my cousin in April
- or New Zealand before I am 25
- never get to show my Grammy my new car ( it is like a child to me I will carry a picture of it in my wallet and am going to send all my friends from away a picture in their Christmas cards LOL)
- would NEVER know what falling in love is really like
- or how they will end my other favorite show (Angel) cause I hated how they ended the other one (Buffy)
- not getting to attend the good old SRHS 10 year reunion ( cause it will be a riot)
- never being able to loose that weight I have been trying to get rid off ( though I hope they could dispose of it at the mortician.. On a side note I wonder if they would do that if I left directions in my will......... and give me fake nails cause I am a chronic nail biter..... Oh and sand off a few of my freckles and all my pimples..... wouldn't that suck if I died on my period cause you know then it would be worse.......... wow that continued longer than I thought it would)

On the plus side

- I could stop trying to quit smoking
- I wouldn't have to watch my family die, and deal with their funerals and life without them
- I wouldn't have to take another call from a dumb ass from Alabama
- I would never have to wonder if God exists anymore
- or if Elvis is really dead
- and where Jimmy Hoffa ended up
- I would know if Aliens exist
- I could party with Janis, Jimmi, Johnny, Jim, Elvis (?).......
- I could stop worrying about my future
- and catch up with other relatives and friends who have already passed on
- I wouldn't have to worry about "being female"
- or getting a sunburn
- or how I smelled
- or pimples
- or how fat I am
- or dating
- or being burned alive ( I am convinced my apartment will catch fire and I will be tramped inside)
- or drowning (cause I'd already be dead DUH!)
- I wouldn't have to worry about seeing creepy things when i least expect them (I would be a creepy thing.......Cool)
- I could stop worrying about disappointing my family ( the extended family like cousins & aunts) when they all discover that I have smoked weed and had sex (more than once), and do drink a little too much sometimes, and do NOT plan on actually having any children biologically, (maybe adopt someday when i can handle the responsibiltity and control my temper).
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Okay got a little too personal there maybe.......... but things I was contemplating on this chilly evening in November, one of the last of the year 2003, needed to be expelled form my system. It's good to reflect!

I went to see Gothika tonight but it was sold out and ended up renting the extended versions of both Lord of the Rings........... and I thought "Man I would be pissed if I didn't get to see the last of the trilogy" hence the list, in case you thought I was being overly morbid, and dabbling in the idea of suicide...............

She sits listening to the hum of voices it could be so overwhelming, she identifies suddenly with a schizophrenic. She knows that her weekend is quickly approaching which makes her antsy. She only lives on the weekends, the rest of the week she is a zombie, she answers the questions, is where she belongs, usually, when she is supposed to be but lately she has been wondering why.

In this crowd she feels very alone.

I have decided I need a computer for those rainy nights when my fingers actually itch to write the jumble thoughts and feelings circling through this wasteland sometimes referred to as my mind.

Last night driving home in my new baby, out of nowhere I had the most beautiful post floating through me but no place to purge it.

Anyone know where I could get a nice little laptop?

So it's Tuesday and I am double jacking with a Tier 2 agent at work.............. So I thought while this crazy customer from butt-fuck, North Carolina rants and raves, I would update my blog............

It's been a while.......... and you want to hear something really weird:

My typing skills are actually improving........ someone made fun of me a while ago because I type all day but my typing was horrendous........ from sheer laziness........ I am not saying I am a superb typist but I am not making as many errors as usual and am quite satisfied with my progress.

So this weekend in a quick run on sentence........ Jamie went out to Main Street bar in North Sydney, got drunk went to sleep, got up far to early, drove everyone home, had her Fantasia party, had a bath, had a nap, went out for her friend Davinna's birthday, stayed up till 7 am chatting with Davinna about religion and politics (I will get into that in a min) and then went home to sleep till 4, drove her cousin and his lovely little fiancé to Halifax and drove home, went for hot chocolate with Tanya and Chris................. *WHEW*

So yea........ I am very particular about who I will talk religion and politics with........... especially when they are drunk and I am not, especially considering how opinionated I am (shocking isn't it). I was quite impressed and surprised to have this conversation with a divine gal, we had a great discussion (from 4 am-7 am) and no fists were thrown, though a few tears were shed.

I had an confusing wade through the waves of worries ongoing at the moment........... I am overly concerned about a few of my friends and their choices as of late. I have been drifting away from some of my dear friends and meeting some other pretty intriguing characters.

Okay starting tomorrow is a friends "E" cherry popping party which should be an interesting experience................... then my fantasia party on Saturday afternoon at 1:30 pm (i will be attending in my PJ's because i never get out of bed before 2 pm lol) should be an hilarious affair to say the least.............. it's also the DIVINE DAVINNA's BIRTHDAY BASH............... taking place at the lovely Jaclyn's so that should be another fantasically fun time............... needless to say there will be many tlaes to tell.............................

Hope you all have a wonderful weekend and if you wanna come to my party on sat afternoon and i forgot to mention it to you please call me and bring a chair! (the aartment is low on furniture i actually have my bed int he middle of the living room to replace my couch i figured it was very fantasia party-esque LMAO.

it has some pretty gsh darn kewl FUCKING features..................

oh yea going driving again.... maybe i'll go to work tomorrow..........
and i am goign to hali on SUNDAY so it does NOT interfer with any plans quit panicing! SHEESH! :D

lol it's time for wings at steel city...............

I bought a brand spanking new car........................ it's a:

2003 Alero GX Coupe, it's a two door, five speed and it's BRIGHT RED

I think I may just fall completely in love with it whenever I see it..................... yea I don't actually have it............. but I own it I just have to sign the papers........ I already made a down payment.............. but because I am so damn stubborn and HAD to HAVE a five speed (standard/manual) car because I LOVE driving them (it's the race car feel lol and most of my friends can't drive it which is always a bonus), I now have to wait to have a car shipped in from Halifax............. that's also why I am buying a 2003 and not a 2004 apparently ( according to the crazy old man who sold me the car) they no longer make the Alero's five speed.

So now comes time for the adventures................ Halifax this weekend baby!

I have the next four days off work. YIPPEE I have no idea what I am going to do.......... my trip to New Brunswick has been postponed/ cancelled till I have a new car...........

It turns out that now the lady, that owned the car that buddy hit me with, is saying he stole the car.............. which I have seen him driving it before so THAT'S A LIE. Now the question is:

DOES THAT FUCK WITH MY CHANCES OF GETTING COVERED BY INSURANCE?????????????????

Needless to say............. I am NOT a happy camper.............. I have done absolutely nothing wrong....... I had the right away............I had my license............ I had permission to drive my own damn car.......... and now I am having crap spread around about me and people giving me dirty looks.............. and btw why when you are trying to avoid someone do they always seem to be EVERYWHERE............ since I found out this dude called me a Fucken Bitch, I have ran into him (not literally) at work constantly, getting on/off elevator or out for a smoek or leaving the building grrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

Oh and if anyone knows this dude and has seen him driving a blue mystique before last monday........... let me know THANKS!

i was here

You know I got an email today about twenty something's and as I was reading it ( I, myself being a twenty-something) this part spoke to me:

"You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those
friends that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the
greatest people you have ever met, and the people you have lost
touch with are some of the most important ones. What you don't
recognize is that they are realizing that too, and aren't really
cold, catty, mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as
you. "

I have lived in many places.......... and one thing I have discovered by moving often in the last few years............... the best friends are not always the first ones you meet............... does anyone else get what I mean............. here's an example......

I went through training at work and met "Amy" and we started hanging out......... she thought I was a "pretty cool chick" so she introduced me to "Shane" a "friend" of Amy's.... who then introduced me to "Tanya"............... now Amy and I hung out quite often till a few events came to be that cause a riff in the friendship so bu-bye "Amy" and well Shane has been busy with other things and has been "behind the scenes" on the Jamie Show lately. So now I am hanging out with this really great chick "Tanya" and the funny thing is "Tanya and I have been having the best things happen to us lately............ and having a blast meeting new boys and hanging out with different people......................

Wow that was longer than I intended and I apologize............ but do you see how the chain of friendship works??

Some of my friends I really really miss............ The best friends I have, I have met under the strangest circumstances and through the worst friends ever................ but I am like a cat I always land on my feet!

So I was on help desk for a bit tonight at work and it was great.............. I loved it............ I just answered question really quickly........... No empathy.. No we words.......... No kb articles.............. just hello how can I help you? and I did I gave advice answered questions and I want to do it always..............

If only life were that simple............. I also had my trusty side-kick Davinna there to help me out............ she went rifling through papers looking for answers to questions I didn't know and I just told them something silly in the meantime or repeated the question back to them loudly................

Now I am back taking regular calls with a low handle time and a happier outlook on my job............. strange very strange..................

It's Remembrance Day and I slept through the minute of silence.................... I wrote a poem a few years ago about the war and remembrance day and I can't seem to find it.

Anyway things to think about war........... I am too much of a hippy!

There once was a beautiful car
She took me near and far
Now she is wrecked in a pound
And I have no way to get around

Yea that was stupid............

My baby is dead......... the bastard that pulled out in front of me didn't have a driver's license didn't have permission to drive the car he was driving and is going around bad-mouthing me. I still have a stiff neck and sore back....... and am completely heartbroken. I don't know what to do without my nearest and dearest friend..........

August 17th 2000, I walked into a ford dealership to buy my 1993 Chevy cavalier (it's a Z24 the sporty kind ohhhhhhh) she was beautiful and I was in love! I picked her up on August 18th 2000 and we have barely been apart since......... I have drove her from Saskatchewan to Nova Scotia......... I drove her all over Sask and Manitoba, all through New Brunswick and Nova Scotia. We have been through snowstorms, and across gravel roads........ She has been hit by a deer (I swear to GOD it ran into the side of my car I think it may have been depressed)...... She has been off-roading and has been filled to capacity with people and all of my worldly possessions (when I moved from Sask to NS).

She was a great car, my first...... Love..... my only love to this moment (I wonder if that makes me a lesbian or just a car-phile) and she will be sorely missed. *sniff*

I must stop going out on the weekend all together........... I must stop dying my hair normal colors cause it seems to attract FREAKS! But that is another story for another time............. So yea update on car accident......... I filed a police report and still slightly stiff and sore from injuries nothing major and my baby is dead......... *sniff sniff* I love that car it lasted longer than any boyfriend........ and was a lot less head-ache she had more stamina and pep than most of them too! She will be sorely missed............ and your insurance system in Nova Scotia SUCKS ASS BTW!


I feel like I am at someone else's tea-party right now and I wasn't invited.........

Wow this is my third blog in 12 hours and I am having to many revelations and questions and you know what is weird......

my little cousins aren't little anymore........ Neither are my little brothers......... I think I am one of the few 22 year old females in the world who has both parents alive, well, still happily married and actually talks to and visits with them on a regular basis (and I am fat and they don't make me feel bad about it).

kids I used to babysit have started to graduate from high school and have babies............. That's strange....... I am cursed when it comes to vehicles.......... Being a passenger or driver....... I should develop a neurotic fear of all vehicles and start see a therapist..........

I will develop a phobia around like dinky cars or something wouldn't that be fucken hilarious.............. Okay maybe you need to be a little cracked up on painkillers to see my humor right now but all I can picture are some of my more twisted friends chasing me around with little tiny cars and me screaming...... At work nonetheless (isn't that a great word nonetheless not even sure if it's an acceptable word and if it's supposed to be typed all together but who gives a shit not me I am on drugs).

Other things that are strange.... People from Alabama (god they are super dumb), guys who call me a fucken bitch after driving out in front of me in the parking lot when I had the right of way!!!!!!!!! Having so many x-rays that you actually lost track because you had to take off your clothes and put them back on so many times in the radiology department when it was PAINFUL to lift your arms over your head!!!!!!!!!!!!

having to clean up after a dog you don't own........ Nor does your roommate own the damn dog...... Nor does the guy that just moved out.......... trying to find the owner of a beautiful pitbull who lives in your apartment but because you and your roommate both work night shifts is stuck there most of the time alone............


which speaking of which means I have to call someone and yell at them...... Cause I have really lost my temper.... And the dog is out of food........ It's not fair to me or the dog cause she is a great dog but stuck in our stupid apartment all day, All alone is no way for her to live!

So here i sit, hyped up on Tylenol 3's and Super Strength Motrin ( i have a high tolerance to pain killers so in order for them to work at all i have to take more and mix them a bit) at 5:34 am on Wednesday morning...... tryignt o order my brother a plane ticket to come home for christmas.

The Matrix Revolutions opens today..... and the tickets are prob already sold out which is depressing because i actually have the day off work...... and am feeling pretty damn good at this very moment. though that doesn't mean i will by showtime tonite.

I have been thinking the craziest things today... like what if the matrix finale is a big disappointment what if they just go for special effects and don't properly tie up all the loose ends, cause it could really go so many ways....... my theory is Pi i mean it's an infinite number and could possibly break the binary code right....... but i won't go into that while my head is cloudy cause i may end up sounding like an idiot.

Wondering if all the arrangements i am making for england in april are goignt o blow up in my face... waht if my cuz backs out at the last minute...... and my biggest crisis right now..... what to do sans a car...... i have lost a bit of my own personal freedom, since i was 18 years old i have rarely had to depend on others for means of transportation........ What if i am doomed to never meet the guy i am meant to be with..... or what if i have and have been to afraid to commit....... naaaaaaawwwwwwwwww doubt it........ is it so wrong of me to be scared of relationships but still want most of what it entails........

is this making any sense right now and why do i type so loudly.... does anyone else notice how loudly i actually type.... i think it's because in high school we took our typing course on actual typewritters cause our typing teacher was a little eccentric (like most teachers are) and didn't trust computers (sadly she left the shcool not much longer after i took my course i think i was actually in her last typing class). Does anyone else wonder about all the nutbars who were freaking about the year 2000 you know Y2K and saving stuff.... do you still think they are using the can goods and bottled water that they ran out and bought mass amounts of?????????

SHould i really be posting this crazy shit..... i seriously hope my aunt has stoppped reading this by now..... it makes me a little paranoid...... and my blog a little tamer..... i was really looking forward to goign to New Brunswick next weekend...... I was suppose to visit my cousin Shannon at Mount A (it's a university on the Nova Scotia/ New Brunswick border) she has been taking swing dancing lessons and they were having an actual dance and i thought it would be a good time...... now i have no car...... so i have thursday -monday at 8 pm off work next weekend yet............ no means to get to NB cause the bus is a hundred dollars one way and seriously that's retarded........ i still have to pay my rent on friday

and by the way anyone reading this that owes me money i would love it if you could give me some if not all of it possibly this weekend......

i may just be buying a new car please comment and leave suggestions as to what kind of car you could see me buying..........................

does anyopne else have a fuzzy nose when they take painkillers?????

So yea I was going to write a lovely blog about my Halloween, of course all about my crazy weekend. I even had blogger opened and had begun writing it on my computer at work.... and then I left for lunch.......

and didn't return.......



It was a cold, dark night in Glace Bay............



Tanya and I went to her house for lunch and it was great KD and chicken burgers....... and played with the kittens (Gargamel and Azreal)...... and then attempted to return to work, neither one of us overly anxious to get back to our wonderful( oh my god what a pile of shit that was) jobs as Technical Representatives......

Anyway I digress........


so yea....... I was driving from one end of the upper level of our parking lot to the other.... To find a lovely parking spot cause there is always better selection after lunch........

WHEN SUDDENLY



SMASH! CRASH! BOOM! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

There was a blue car in front on me, and then it wasn't.


My hood was crumpled my neck hurt, my boobs hurt, my ribs and arm hurt........................TANYA oh my god you ok?...... Then a hundred "oh my god" "Are you okay"(s) and pain..........

So yea I was involved in yet another MVA and I am starting to wonder if I am cursed...... Or maybe my family is...... My cousin Jordan was involved in a roll-over on Halloween night on his way to Halifax to visit my friend Megs, but he is in a lot worse shape than me..... Like broken sternum and ribs, a punctured lung........ My brother is still on crutches from breaking his knee........... and my other brother out west had his vehicle rolled by his best friend and it's totaled.......... Speaking of which........

MY BABY IS DEAD..... My very first car........ But on the up side: no car insurance payment coming out this month, no more having to drive my friends around and no more oil changes and filling up with gas for my car.......

Yea anyone got a lot of bubble wrap they could donate to me.............