Wednesday, October 15, 2003
I am craving strange things
Here I sit in a training class learning more boring crap about my job........ it's a two hour training class on something that we will not know anything about until we actually get to use it. So instead I am going to type up a blog entry in notepad, paste it in my email and then posting it so you can read it...... things I want to say........ it's hard to be happy when all your friends are down, you are alone, and confused. I am trying to save money for my trip, 100$ a week till April should give me approximately two thousand dollars. Since I have actually quit smoking (11 days and counting) I should be saving around 30$ a week, going to stop buying my lunch everyday, I suck ass at saving money. I bought my brand new winter jacket yesterday...... I love it, it adds to my snotty bitch, that I seem to have started lately.
I bought some new fun things yesterday on my magical mystery tour with Tracey (you blow my mind with your continued strength and sheer will-power) we had a ball and I think we should do it again soon but I am not allowed to spend money next time.
Megs is coming down for the weekend........ Yea should be a good time had by all....... Apparently I get to go to some kind of bar that is "grubby" and that is exciting...... I get to chill out and just have a few drinks...... I think it may be a vodka night.
I called many of my friends on Friday night in my complete and utter drunken state and left a obscene message on one of their phones....... I have no idea who else I talked to and at 25 cents a minute I hope it was entertaining to most of them. I had a thoroughly enjoyable weekend... I came back to a dark and dreary group of friends who no longer seem to have time, and have decided maybe it's me......... So I will wait patiently for them to interact with me (I have NO patience) if they do not call therefore they do not want to be around me...... and I was right all along I do need new friends!
I will prob rant and rave later on........... I am hoping most of you have grown bored with this and have stopped reading it......... cause I may get a little out of control later.......... this quitting smoking has done the strangest things to my brain...............
I bought some new fun things yesterday on my magical mystery tour with Tracey (you blow my mind with your continued strength and sheer will-power) we had a ball and I think we should do it again soon but I am not allowed to spend money next time.
Megs is coming down for the weekend........ Yea should be a good time had by all....... Apparently I get to go to some kind of bar that is "grubby" and that is exciting...... I get to chill out and just have a few drinks...... I think it may be a vodka night.
I called many of my friends on Friday night in my complete and utter drunken state and left a obscene message on one of their phones....... I have no idea who else I talked to and at 25 cents a minute I hope it was entertaining to most of them. I had a thoroughly enjoyable weekend... I came back to a dark and dreary group of friends who no longer seem to have time, and have decided maybe it's me......... So I will wait patiently for them to interact with me (I have NO patience) if they do not call therefore they do not want to be around me...... and I was right all along I do need new friends!
I will prob rant and rave later on........... I am hoping most of you have grown bored with this and have stopped reading it......... cause I may get a little out of control later.......... this quitting smoking has done the strangest things to my brain...............
