Sunday, September 21, 2003
OH NO
When I wrote the blog about my car accident, I sent out an email to most of my friends and family, cause I wanted a lot of them to understand where I was coming from when it all happened. What I was thinking and feeling because a lot of people asked about it, well I sent it to my Aunt D****........ who is quite religious and I love to death, but she doesn't agree with a lot of the things I do and say............. and I hope she loves me in spite of it.............. though when I sent it to my mother (who I wasn't too concerned about reading my blog in it's entirety cause my mom knows I am not a saint, and I don't lie or hide ANYTHING from her, sometimes I hide a few things from my dad for his own sanity). So yea when I sent it to her and my mom I said please only read the one entry, it turns out not everyone listens to my instructions as clearly as I thought they would and NOW I am scared to go home for thanksgiving............ because in my family; gossip spreads like wild-fire and it is super easy to offend... and I have always been the black sheep............. being the oldest of all the grandchildren; a smoker with multiple piercings and funky colored hair who hides NONE of my adventures or faults......... plus my grandma and I have a pretty good relationship............ or at least we did........... as much as I truly love my Aunt dearly I hope she keeps her new-found knowledge to herself............. I never claimed to be perfect or innocent.... not that their is anything terribly shocking in my blog and now for sure there won't be........ maybe I should start a new thing..... my own fault everything went to shit.... Wait no.. Aunt D**** I am going to trust you, and hope you will understand me instead of criticize me. I know you won't "understand" me but accept this if you are going to read it... well there is a disclaimer on the side, and I am going to pretend that I do not know that you read this.......... I know you were not innocent at my age..... because no one really is............ Or maybe I will just stop blogging all together I feel violated...........
