Tuesday, September 23, 2003
Mid-afternoon contemplations
I was up till 6:30 am this morning after having a lovely conversation with a dear friend......... and comforting another........then I went in search of a bed to crawl into......... I could have even climbed into one with company last night........ but took the road less travel and went to a friends and climb into bed and actually went to sleep........ after only tossing and turning a bit..... surprised was I. I actually crawled out of bed at 5 to one (under my own personal willpower I might add) grabbed a quick shower and went in search of the friend who I had stayed up with most of the early morning hours....... We are supposed to be heading to Sydney and here it is over an hour after I crawled out of bed and I am waiting for the room to stop spinning for her...... I made some pretty harsh decisions yesterday and now I beginning to think about what effect these will actually have on me.......... Though yesterday was quite rejuventating, sometimes I have a habit of thinking I am completely alone in my thinking and feelings and then I share a conversation or a look or even have a "chat" and realize someone else understands (even the ones who you think you have figured out).......... I do know the meaning of the expression being completely alone in a crowd........... but it's a good thing I am my own best friend and worst enemy cause it keeps me entertained.............
