Saturday, September 27, 2003
guilt does strange things to a person
So in case no one noticed I am a very spontaneous person...... one minute I was
having a great time in my adventure away, the next I find out that I minor injury that
my brother sustained now is serious and requires surgery. Another one of my friends should have had me around last night to be the defender of what is right and good and instead I was being pulled over by the cops. I can't help but feel quite guilty now, though even though all of this has happened here I sit typing my blog while watching 24 hour party people a movie about the guy who signed such great bands as new order, sex pistols and someone else but in my crazy thoughts I forgot the name...... it is set in London in the late 70's early 80's. Which is interesting cause I got an email today requesting my presence in London in April...... for 710$ Canadian I could fly there round trip but the catch is the ticket must be purchased before Oct 2nd.... I had been thinking about where I would stay what would I do, and what if I meet my Scottish lad...... but you know what.....fuck it I am going.... the thought of ness actually leaving town for a while and going all the way across the ocean.... well that is too much of an adventure to pass up...... I guess I should pop into the bank on Monday and figure this all out.
I decided against the piercing...... I am going to spend the 120$ on birthday presents for friends instead cause it is so much more fulfilling. My birthdays is soon approaching and I think that is why I have been so reflective, and confused about my life...... I was a little down about it because I have enjoyed being 21 but since it has been 11 years since I have been a double number well I may as well enjoy 22 right. You know I find myself going on a tangent about absolutely nothing and never really writting what I really want to say......
tomorrow is going to be hazardous to my bank account....... this city is hazardous to my bank account....... I am staying in an apartment with a gorgeous view of the city and harbor and I rather enjoy it all.
totally off in another direction does anyone else love how the word fuck is pronouced using different languages and accents...... and I almost bought a corset top tonight, but I was still going to get my nips pierced at the time.... then had a convo with megs and the idea of puss oozing from them just disgusts me more by the moment....... I have a friend who had her's done in June and stuff is still oozing...... ICK! I can't do that to my boobs, they have been too good to me for that.
someday before I turn thirty I will dance like ago-go dancer on a table in a glittery bikini and will have the body to make men faint in heat and I will relish in it...... but for today I will enjoy my body just the way it is...... with every scar and curve because it is mine and I rather enjoy it............. how many chicks can honestly say that........
having a great time in my adventure away, the next I find out that I minor injury that
my brother sustained now is serious and requires surgery. Another one of my friends should have had me around last night to be the defender of what is right and good and instead I was being pulled over by the cops. I can't help but feel quite guilty now, though even though all of this has happened here I sit typing my blog while watching 24 hour party people a movie about the guy who signed such great bands as new order, sex pistols and someone else but in my crazy thoughts I forgot the name...... it is set in London in the late 70's early 80's. Which is interesting cause I got an email today requesting my presence in London in April...... for 710$ Canadian I could fly there round trip but the catch is the ticket must be purchased before Oct 2nd.... I had been thinking about where I would stay what would I do, and what if I meet my Scottish lad...... but you know what.....fuck it I am going.... the thought of ness actually leaving town for a while and going all the way across the ocean.... well that is too much of an adventure to pass up...... I guess I should pop into the bank on Monday and figure this all out.
I decided against the piercing...... I am going to spend the 120$ on birthday presents for friends instead cause it is so much more fulfilling. My birthdays is soon approaching and I think that is why I have been so reflective, and confused about my life...... I was a little down about it because I have enjoyed being 21 but since it has been 11 years since I have been a double number well I may as well enjoy 22 right. You know I find myself going on a tangent about absolutely nothing and never really writting what I really want to say......
tomorrow is going to be hazardous to my bank account....... this city is hazardous to my bank account....... I am staying in an apartment with a gorgeous view of the city and harbor and I rather enjoy it all.
totally off in another direction does anyone else love how the word fuck is pronouced using different languages and accents...... and I almost bought a corset top tonight, but I was still going to get my nips pierced at the time.... then had a convo with megs and the idea of puss oozing from them just disgusts me more by the moment....... I have a friend who had her's done in June and stuff is still oozing...... ICK! I can't do that to my boobs, they have been too good to me for that.
someday before I turn thirty I will dance like ago-go dancer on a table in a glittery bikini and will have the body to make men faint in heat and I will relish in it...... but for today I will enjoy my body just the way it is...... with every scar and curve because it is mine and I rather enjoy it............. how many chicks can honestly say that........
