Saturday, August 09, 2003
5 am ramblings
So here I sit at my friends computer on Saturday morning listening to November Rain, and wondering why in the hell I have been so sick lately, I am a little frighten actually, I think that something as lot more serious has been causing my immune system to become so weakened..................but not to fret I will just make an appointment with my new doctor as soon as I remember her name............I have had tonsillitis (spelling??) for the last few days.......you know I was born with a fairly loud vocal ability thanks to my beautiful mother, and not being able to speak any louder than a whisper is a challenge, especially when I am such a vocal person usually.............it made work impossible it made me look poorly because of all the time I have missed lately; and caused me to miss the Trooper concert. waaaaaaaaahaaaaaaaaaaa...........it was raining and I was scared I would only get sicker by going.................so I spent the night sober and chilling, sleeping then we headed to the Guildwood for a bit, got to dance a bit, and used my voice to a volume I shouldn't have, it hurts now.........
Now I am listening to the theme from BRAVEHEART my all time favorite movie ever, the movie that restores my hope that maybe someday this bitch will fall in love, though I think I will need to go to Scotland to do it. My chick friends don't understand me and my lack of romantism, the only time I get "romantic" is days like today when it is raining I just want to go for a walk on the beach and watch the waves pound onto the sand, and maybe someday I will find a wonderful guy who is tall with broad shoulders and has a wicked sense of humor (and of course amazing stamina) that has a Scottish accent to wake up next to every afternoon and tell me in that beautiful accent that he loves me...............................but until then, I just wanna hang out, make out and what the hell get a little on the side so I don't wither away LOL....................what's so wrong with that...................
It's insane what an affect movies have on my life, I watch some like ALMOST FAMOUS and wish I could have been a groupie in the seventies, when my music was young and fresh, I remember watching that movie alone at the cheap theatres in Regina while I was in rehab and wanting to call all my friends and make them watch it, though not all my friends think that music from the 70's is the best music on the planet..........I get a twitch every time someone asks who the hell Janis Joplin is, or Nazareth.........or think that Meatloaf is just an actor. Though I probably would have been lethal in the 70's or worse a geek who didn't even go to concerts (considering who my first concert ever was....I'm so ashamed lol).
It's 5 am and I am wired for sound I need to communicate with a human, if my best friend in Sask wasn't working right now I would so call her, though it is Spy hill sports days and she may be there partying it up macking it up and drinking the place dry, she's a crazy red-head with the temper and looks to boot the guys DO NOT have a chance (hey ness do you miss spy hill?) Btw I think I am heading to Hali next weekend, if anyone wants me to pick up anything let me know..............
If I were a bird and could fly away right now I am not sure where I would go and that bothers me.................I have the urge to run again but I have been trying to get east for so long I don't know where the new destination is; though I was thinking Veille Quebec pour pratiquer ma francais parce-que je suis peur que je vas perde le, ou le france c'est belle dans septembre, ou peut-etre je vas finallement aller aux New Zealand............................. Jer ne sais pas quoi faire, peut-etre je peut reste ici et coucher pour quel-qu mois, aller aux ecole secondaire, je voulais..............je ne c'est pas qu'est que c'est que je voulais mais...................
Now I am listening to the theme from BRAVEHEART my all time favorite movie ever, the movie that restores my hope that maybe someday this bitch will fall in love, though I think I will need to go to Scotland to do it. My chick friends don't understand me and my lack of romantism, the only time I get "romantic" is days like today when it is raining I just want to go for a walk on the beach and watch the waves pound onto the sand, and maybe someday I will find a wonderful guy who is tall with broad shoulders and has a wicked sense of humor (and of course amazing stamina) that has a Scottish accent to wake up next to every afternoon and tell me in that beautiful accent that he loves me...............................but until then, I just wanna hang out, make out and what the hell get a little on the side so I don't wither away LOL....................what's so wrong with that...................
It's insane what an affect movies have on my life, I watch some like ALMOST FAMOUS and wish I could have been a groupie in the seventies, when my music was young and fresh, I remember watching that movie alone at the cheap theatres in Regina while I was in rehab and wanting to call all my friends and make them watch it, though not all my friends think that music from the 70's is the best music on the planet..........I get a twitch every time someone asks who the hell Janis Joplin is, or Nazareth.........or think that Meatloaf is just an actor. Though I probably would have been lethal in the 70's or worse a geek who didn't even go to concerts (considering who my first concert ever was....I'm so ashamed lol).
It's 5 am and I am wired for sound I need to communicate with a human, if my best friend in Sask wasn't working right now I would so call her, though it is Spy hill sports days and she may be there partying it up macking it up and drinking the place dry, she's a crazy red-head with the temper and looks to boot the guys DO NOT have a chance (hey ness do you miss spy hill?) Btw I think I am heading to Hali next weekend, if anyone wants me to pick up anything let me know..............
If I were a bird and could fly away right now I am not sure where I would go and that bothers me.................I have the urge to run again but I have been trying to get east for so long I don't know where the new destination is; though I was thinking Veille Quebec pour pratiquer ma francais parce-que je suis peur que je vas perde le, ou le france c'est belle dans septembre, ou peut-etre je vas finallement aller aux New Zealand............................. Jer ne sais pas quoi faire, peut-etre je peut reste ici et coucher pour quel-qu mois, aller aux ecole secondaire, je voulais..............je ne c'est pas qu'est que c'est que je voulais mais...................
