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I might get fired................... i have never been fired before should be interesting!

It's Sunday evening and I am back to work after yet another wild weekend.............. I have tomorrow off and haven't even begin to decide what to do with myself.......... so tempted to hop in my car and drive till I run out of gas, money, smokes or all three lol.................. if it is a nice day I might head out to Louisburg............. I had a great weekend.............. it was girls night out on Friday and though we left with more than we came home with we had a ball nonetheless, I only got upset twice (which for drinking with a bunch of females only getting upset twice is pretty good and I don't mean crying upset I mean angry upset). We hit two bars and though not the busiest night or best music at either........... still a good time all around........... you know it's an interesting night when you have three messages on your phone when you get to a food place after the bar, and one is someone crying about a boy, the next is friends yelling at you for not being around while they are drunk and the last is a friend at the hospital (the one you have lost along the way). We met a boy with great blue eyes, and all beinf very sarcastic at that point in the night i think we scared him un petite peu LOL.

No fights, no tears, no sex, no ex-boyfriends, no slow dancing, no problems............................. not the best night ever by far but a good time nonetheless (je l'aime cette mot je ne said pas pourquoi, mais je l'aime le nonplus)


Hanging out with the Divine Davinna last night at SPERMANS i got to speak some french (mind you i was half cut and slurring a bit) but still it was a nice touch to the evening.......................... though it has to be better than getting introduced to one of the more important guys from work while having a few in the bag............... an awkward situation to say the least.


I think it was a good time all around............... we'll see what tonight brings.............. considering i woke up today with a bit of a headache wondering why int eh hell my head hurts i had only drank beer the night before (though i am allergic it uses just causes me to get drunk faster and throw up more if i drink too much in too small of a period of time) I had only drank "K" beer all night my keith's (at the first place) the Kokanee at spermans............then it hit me i was drinking a big ass glass of vodka at about 6:30 am this morning...... definately could have caused the headache.............. it all makes sense now.................

Anyone got any suggestions for tomorrow or feel like going on a roadtrip? Comment below...................

You know I have a crazy temper.................. and sometimes i really have difficulty controlling it............ due to recent events that caused me to loose a friend.................. i have been really tempted to loose my temper.............. instead i have maintained my distance.............. see i used to work in a bar............so when i was angry at someone i could yell, scream, hollar, throw beer glasses and kick beer cases................................... I loved it........... but now i work somewhere that i cannot express those emotions at all i have to be pleasant and polite.................... i have to bite my tongue.............. which i can handle................ most of the time............. but you see when everything is crashing down around you and the whole world seems to have gone mad............ and someone who is supposed to be a "friend" does something............. that if you had done to her would have made her spit fire.............. incredibly dumb.......... and then has the nerve to ask why are you avoiding me............. ARE YOU RETARDED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

This past weekend shit hit the fan............... i really don't care that much about what she did it................. it combined with a million other little things............... makes it seem worse................ then she comes to my personal place (this blog) and proceeds to go on a rant about what i bad person i am.............. well i will not reply to that................... because "If I were the HULK I would have smashed by now!"

For those of you who do not know what the fuck..................... you are lucky............................ some people are not to be trusted and some people you are friends with way to long to bother loosing your temper with because you realise they never really were your friend...................... and i only fight to keep things........ so beware...................

i don't know how this is going to look or if i will even enjoy it but we shall soon find out. I am a little sick........................ I have given up on the local soap opera................. when it all plays out i am afraid i will have lost three friends instead of just one (stop trying to contact me if you are reading this). We shall see how much power people really wield..............................

So I am tryign to learn this html stuff...................though i was pretty content without it before i thought why not try and spice it all up a bit..........it isn't going to be anywhere near as fancy as some of my friends site but i am going to try and make it a little more fun...................

Am i too self-centred and self-absorbed?

I am an addict...............................i want everyone i know to blog everyday .................i have read some pretty interesting blogs..................and it is all *DAVINNA'S* fault, she got me hooked line and sinker on STEVE'S blog (www.stevesthoughtfulspot.blogspot.com).....which lead to me reading CORY'S blog, on to my own, then SHANE started one, now TANYA has one.and the whole world should join us..........................no not really cause i suck at this.............and considering some of the people i talk to on a regular basis are less intelligent than myself.......................maybe not such a great idea...............but i do enjoy reading everyone's blogs.................................

wow i wrote a very short blog about blogs and i didn't even swear.......................impressed am I.................

someone comment happy thoughts

So it is a brand new day, and instead of passing out last night....like I had every intention of doing..........as soon as my brain slowed down..........I ended up getting drug out in search of my friends and then to a small gathering of peeps who were all sober, never fails when I am drunk everyone else is sober and vice versa...................I got to sleep around 9:30 am and woke up at 10:45 AM, AGAIN at 12 PM and again at 1:22, and 2 pm, finally getting up around 2:40 pm to get ready for work.......................and surprisingly enough I am not a zombie...................I ended up having a pretty good time last night............it is amusing how standing on the beach at 5 am screaming your friend's name can really make you fell just a wee bit better..................I think I may do it again tonight.........after I have a refreshing chat with a few friends that is much needed........................

I have four possible hair colors to pick from....................I am bleaching my hair out...................now should I go BRIGHT red, BRIGHT blue, plain red, or keep it blond (which is the scariest of all possibilities because I think I will be a very scary blond person, with my dark eyebrows, pale skin and blue eyes............. any suggestions????? or I could leave it the hell alone.............but that's no fun.....................

Random thoughts...........................is the other place that I am thinking about working at really better than where I already am, I have to get a filling in Sept. and new glasses, can I wait another however many months till new benefits kick in........is their benefits there........................... is their any new music that is actually good that I want to listen too if so suggestions are welcome..............................since I know nothing about html.......does my site look boring.and do I care about it...............do you the "readers" care about it.......................and do I care what you think.................sometimes I guess..................what kind of mental illness do you people have.....................to read this madness.......................

So I said I wasn't going to write about my friend who I lost, and even though and I am drunk and have so many feelings to express that is not going to be one of them...............................................................so many things happened this weekend, and I finally convinced my friends to leave me alone (only because I could not stand to be in a moving vehicle)......sorry guys I love you but I have motion sickness to begin with let alone being drunk on top of that..........I can handle a lot of things but...........................so anyway..............................A great night all around spanks again to Ange for the invite..........we went to a concert (adult dance) where her boyfriend was playing in this band.........who btw pays some pretty fun old school music (for those of you who do NOT know I am HOOKED on old school classic rock, meatloaf, ]an==, led zeppelin, Lynard Skynard, Nazareth, and of course I love ram jam solely because of BLACK BETTY..............lol I LOVE the beat in that tune.......................and you gotta love *ROXY ROLLA* lol (inside joke...I miss the nick..........) anyway......................

so I had so many mixed emotions, I felt betrayed, then ecstatic, joyful, then depressed, happy, then "pretty", ugly, fat, intrigued, stupid, hurt, glee, idiotic, remorseful, hideous, attractive, flirty, shy, giggly, bashful.......tired and of course, I had to absorb it all so contemplative......................BTW I can spell but I don't chose to correct my mistakes because that would cause me to edit way to much of what I write and who really wants the censored version.,..................I wanted to kiss a boy this weekend and because of his anal friend who wanted to go home.............and he felt obligated to stick to his friend (which I understood) I didn't get to................................and the boy I have been kissing as of late...............well that is a story that isn't worth the breath to tell.........................

so now I am alone..........and slightly in need of a pick me of and btw ("a reader" your comments were much needed not overly deserved but greatly appreciated nonetheless (is that all one word and do I really care at this moment?)

so i had so many mixed emotions, I felt betrayed, then estatic, joyful, then depressed, happy, then "pretty", ugly, fat, intrigued,stupid, hurt, glee, idiotic, remorseful, hideoius, attractive,flirty, shy, giggly, bashful.......tired and of course, i had to absorb it all so contempaltive......................BTW i can spell but i don't chose to correct my mistakes because that would cause me to edit way to much of what i write and who really wants the censored version.,..................i wanted to kiss a boy this weekend and because of his anal friend who wanted to go home.............and he felt obligated to stick to his friend (which i understood) i didn't get to................................and the boy i have been kissing as of late...............well that is a story that isn't worth the breath to tell.........................

so now i am alone..........and slightly in need of a pick me of and btw ("a reader" your comments were much needed not overly deserved but greatly appreciated nonetheless (is that all one word and do i really care at this moment?)

I need to talk to a real live person right now................................so i will blog later..................................or whatever

So yea, if it wasn't my good friend Tracey's Birthday BASH tomorrow I would go home tonight after work and LOCK myself in my ROOM turn off the phone and curl up in bed and become a hermit for the weekend, leaving only for my dentist appointment tomorrow afternoon.............................I have had enough.............. enough of work, enough of the fighting, enough of people trying to FUCK with my friends.................enough of the people not talking...............enough of the people trying to honestly express their feeling only to be met with backlash....................enough of people constantly criticzing me and my decisions...........enough of the dear and drear....................doesn't anyone want to be happy anymore because lately some of my nearest and dreariest friends have been quite negative and you know WHAT..................life is great the sun is shining and people love you.....................people care............I want everyone to just stop for FIVE FUCKING MINUTES and realize that live is precious and very short why waste it being all depressed and pissy and shit...........let's all get over ourselves to quote a friend...................................


BTW for those of you who love to mock me.................................I have a lovely story for you.............................I was at work for an extra 55 minutes last night talking to a wonderfully intellectually-challenged women from ALABAMA (the height of intelligence in the brilliant country of USA)............ANYWAY.........so I leave work talking on the phone to KELLY and I was babbling away looking in my purse for my keys as we chatted and lo and behold no keys in my purse, so I turn around and walk back to work and got checked by security up to my desk...... NO KEYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I was cursing and swearing (something I wouldn't normally fucking do) and searching everywhere for my god damn keys........................so I walked back out to my car past security stopping quickly to tell them if they found any keys there were mine..........................and back to my baby (my lovely cavalier).............and you know what..........my keys were hanging in the IGNITION!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am an idiot........................... oh well I called my Mom to bring in the key on her way to work in the morning (she doesn't work on Thursdays!)so then I said well Dad does.......................he booked the day off................so I was like okay nevermind................but she said she would (mind you I woke the poor women out of a dead sleep)............so I thought I will just crash at my friends place and get the key in the morning, and then my phone rings.........my mom woke up a bit more and realized she only had the key for the ignition not for the doors ( she woke up and realized this and I didn't; it never even crossed my mind)....so then I called one of my other friends to get the number of the guy she used to unlocked her doors two days before when she had done the exact same thing! So I ended up getting my keys crashing at my friends after watching a horrendous Canadian movie.............................

What a day!

I really did, I had fun, my own desk, talking to different people all the time, lots of interesting people around to talk to when I wasn't on the phone. I used to do French email which was interesting and I had time away from the crazy customers. I used to be perky and fun on the phone. I made the greeting my own. I was GOOD at my job..........
Now I am so-so, it has become stressful, things have changed and my job has become more about the technical help, following the company policies and procedures and less about the customer...............and the stress level is high............ I can handle the changes in information, I can't handle getting penalized for changes that only happened this morning when I wasn't working................I can handle the angry customers...........I can't handle the ones that don't listen simple instructions..................I can handle my crazy co-workers freaking out............I can't handle people who I thought were my friends sending me email bitching at me about not spending enough time with them and what a bitch I am (hell wasn't that obvious a while ago)...............I can handle my supervisor......I can't handle other peoples supervisors (especially the idle Nazis).............I can handle a little overtime...........but would prefer VTO (oh how I miss you my dear sweet friend)..................I can handle the newbies coming in and double-jacking.............I can't handle some of the better people I work with quitting or getting fired.............I can handle working with my whole family..................I can't handle the drive out to the bridge after a long night of putting up with Americans................... I needed to vent..........................

Footprints In Your Heart
Many people will walk in and out of your life,
But only true friends will leave footprints in your heart.
To handle yourself, use your head;
To handle others, use your heart.

Anger is only one letter short of danger.

If someone betrays you once, it is his fault;
If he betrays you twice, it is your fault.

Great minds discuss ideas,
Average minds discuss events,
Small minds discuss people.

He who loses money, loses much;
He who loses a friend, loses much more;
He who loses faith, loses all.

Beautiful young people are accidents of nature,
But beautiful old people are works of art.

Learn from the mistakes of others.
You can't live long enough to make them all yourself.

Friends, you and me.
You brought another friend,
And then there were three.

We started our group,
Our circle of friends,
And like that circle -
There is no beginning or end.

Yesterday is history.
Tomorrow is mystery.
Today is a gift.

That's why it's called the present.*

So another day another dollar....................................today is only Monday and I can't wait for Friday to get here so I can go to Tracey's BIRTHDAY BASH........................I get to get dressed up and everything...................should be a fun time. I could say so much today but I think tomorrow would be a safer day to blog....................so I will leave you with this thought............................................................ Many people will walk in and out of your life. But only true friends will leave footprints in your heart..................................... and I think the JAMIE SHOW is moving outta town....................I think some other friends need some muddy tracks on their doorsteps............................I have made the changes necessary to leave once again so I am going to enjoy he next few months but come November I will be moving on again.......................going to go to jobsearch.com does anyone have any suggestions on what my next career should be?

So yea my cuz is engaged to the sweetest girl I know, they are both complete and utter dorks and are completely perfect for each other and make me feel all gooey inside........wait i'm not retarded enough to get married right now............but hey they are and it's EXCITING!!!!!!!!!!!!! and it may mean a cool trip to somewhere EXOTIC for the wedding.......... Just when i thought my night had gone to hell some good news (and tanya walking into a door) saved it LOL

anyway it's beddie bye time......................

This thing has made my time at work extremely stressful lately...........................I actually added up my hours and wondered what life on unemployment is really like...........................does anyone know?

So it's 4:12 am on Sunday morning and my baby brother is NINETEEN HAPPY BIRTHDAY KIDDO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I went to the movies tonight and seen SWAT and Colin Farrell gets more appealing each and every time I see him. Then I went for a walk down to my workplace to pick up a friend, who decided she wanted to hit the bar next door for a beer...........so in we go and upstairs we go and not having been in the building for more than five minutes do I see my SUP and 2 GM's and all being the sweeties they are asked me, How is you voice Jamie? (out of deep concern of this I am certain) and I replied I was recovering nicely and thanks for asking.......................now I am certain I will be fired........it is my day off.........I wasn't drunk..............though I wish I had been almost.........

Anyway the rest of the night was some social escapades that could have been done without and will result in some possible violence next weekend...............should be interesting to say the least but I do not want to incriminate myself so I will leave it at that let's just say people fucked with people they shouldn't have and now must pay for mistakes made..................

So one of my friends wants to get a tat and because I am a freak with piercing I MUST want a tat, and she is trying to justify the fact that she is getting a tat of a BUTTERFLY (mind you it is a black butterfly and is actually quite nice but still a company that I don't particularly care for logo is a butterfly LOL) so she sends me a link for a website where.........get this.........FUCKING BARBIE has a TAT!

http://www.vanishingtattoo.com/tattoo/celeb-barbie.htm

I being the sarcastic bitch that I am sent her back an email to the extent of "yea cause Barbie has one now it definitely is cool to get a tat................. I dunno no offence to anyone who gets a tat and (no offence to you Hun it's your body you do whatever the fuck you want) but I am sick of all my friends trying to get me to go get a tat with them, if you are scared to get a piercing I'll get a new one to show you how much fun it is........... but tat's are PERM........you can't just pull the jewelry out, or wash it off, lol when you are 80 it's going to be still on your ass (or wherever you decided you decided you wanted a picture..............so I don't believe in getting one on the spur of the moment.............................. But really who gives a flying fuck about what the fuck I think and if you do you are seriously fucked!

LOVE'S YA

So I don't want to write anything so I am just going to blather away fro a second I am just downloading some tunes and need a nap.

So here I sit at my friends computer on Saturday morning listening to November Rain, and wondering why in the hell I have been so sick lately, I am a little frighten actually, I think that something as lot more serious has been causing my immune system to become so weakened..................but not to fret I will just make an appointment with my new doctor as soon as I remember her name............I have had tonsillitis (spelling??) for the last few days.......you know I was born with a fairly loud vocal ability thanks to my beautiful mother, and not being able to speak any louder than a whisper is a challenge, especially when I am such a vocal person usually.............it made work impossible it made me look poorly because of all the time I have missed lately; and caused me to miss the Trooper concert. waaaaaaaaahaaaaaaaaaaa...........it was raining and I was scared I would only get sicker by going.................so I spent the night sober and chilling, sleeping then we headed to the Guildwood for a bit, got to dance a bit, and used my voice to a volume I shouldn't have, it hurts now.........

Now I am listening to the theme from BRAVEHEART my all time favorite movie ever, the movie that restores my hope that maybe someday this bitch will fall in love, though I think I will need to go to Scotland to do it. My chick friends don't understand me and my lack of romantism, the only time I get "romantic" is days like today when it is raining I just want to go for a walk on the beach and watch the waves pound onto the sand, and maybe someday I will find a wonderful guy who is tall with broad shoulders and has a wicked sense of humor (and of course amazing stamina) that has a Scottish accent to wake up next to every afternoon and tell me in that beautiful accent that he loves me...............................but until then, I just wanna hang out, make out and what the hell get a little on the side so I don't wither away LOL....................what's so wrong with that...................

It's insane what an affect movies have on my life, I watch some like ALMOST FAMOUS and wish I could have been a groupie in the seventies, when my music was young and fresh, I remember watching that movie alone at the cheap theatres in Regina while I was in rehab and wanting to call all my friends and make them watch it, though not all my friends think that music from the 70's is the best music on the planet..........I get a twitch every time someone asks who the hell Janis Joplin is, or Nazareth.........or think that Meatloaf is just an actor. Though I probably would have been lethal in the 70's or worse a geek who didn't even go to concerts (considering who my first concert ever was....I'm so ashamed lol).

It's 5 am and I am wired for sound I need to communicate with a human, if my best friend in Sask wasn't working right now I would so call her, though it is Spy hill sports days and she may be there partying it up macking it up and drinking the place dry, she's a crazy red-head with the temper and looks to boot the guys DO NOT have a chance (hey ness do you miss spy hill?) Btw I think I am heading to Hali next weekend, if anyone wants me to pick up anything let me know..............

If I were a bird and could fly away right now I am not sure where I would go and that bothers me.................I have the urge to run again but I have been trying to get east for so long I don't know where the new destination is; though I was thinking Veille Quebec pour pratiquer ma francais parce-que je suis peur que je vas perde le, ou le france c'est belle dans septembre, ou peut-etre je vas finallement aller aux New Zealand............................. Jer ne sais pas quoi faire, peut-etre je peut reste ici et coucher pour quel-qu mois, aller aux ecole secondaire, je voulais..............je ne c'est pas qu'est que c'est que je voulais mais...................

Did you know if you are single and living in the NWT they pay you 15$ a day just to live there.............................and only 7% taxes...................and a really good life experience........I could finally write my novel.............hrmmmmmmmmmmm

Does anyone find my jumping all over the place with a different train of thought terribly annoying? You know what I DON'T CARE!!!!!!!!!!!!! This whole blog thing was probably not such a hot idea...............

There is new eye-candy at work.............always fun.............and speaking of work it was almost as much fun as conversations to be had about my boobs and things people want to do to me when they are drunk... WTF was with that??????????????????????? Though it was a nice change normally I get hit on by OLD men and LESBIANS..................... my life is never dull!

So one of my friends emailed me a picture of the Microsoft corporation in 1978.........with a caption that said would you invest????? it was hilarious..........BILL looked twelve; they all looked like they could have been part of the Manson family (Charles not Marilyn for those of you who don't know anything). now after reading that anyone who really knows me is wondering why is she claiming to have friends lol........................

My baby brother is going to be 19 on Sunday, I would say my little brother but he is about 6'3.........so technically he is not so little............I want to get him shit-faced just for the laughs.........I am cruel

anyway we are super busy tonight at work so I should get back to work............................

I haven't been updating this very much lately, haven't been home to do it. Too much going on, enjoying the staying up till damn and sleeping to mid-afternoon.

My hottie cut his hair and I heard him speak..........................not good! Pretty things are meant to be looked at not listened to.................it ruins the illusion lol...........

I am going to see Trooper on Friday night, quite possibly alone...........but we're here for a good time not a long time..............in all seriousness that more or less describes my life since I was 16........ I have never seen Trooper live and I am going to have fun regardless.

Another crazy weekend..........really thinking about moving........... But having too much fun...lol.........Though I talked to few different friends about moving and you know what...........I may be able to do it yet again.........for those who do not know I have moved numerous times, I moved to New Brunswick when I was 5, moved in with my grandma when my parents moved out west for a few months till I finished to Sask when I was 17, to Regina when I was 17, back in with my parents after "the accident" moved to moose jaw when I was 18, back in with my parents when I was 19 (and my roommate went crazy and stole from me.) Then I got my own place, it was awesome, then I decided to move to New Brunswick again, then when my grandfather died I came back to Cape Breton where my parents worked at a call centre I applied here the night of his funeral (I still don't know what I put in my application lol). Here I am and here I go again I think..............I dunno for sure yet but it is definitely running through my head. Especially since I am hooking up most of my friends, though I do have a bit more patchwork to take care of, I am kinda like some fairy tale character I enter peoples lives long enough to teach them they can stand on their own damn feet and be happy all by themselves.............. though some are easier then others..... I don't have issues, what's wrong with me?